It took Eighteen Months to Write “Scrambled Eggs”

My song, Breathe Deep, on False Identities album — was my first indie-rock music release. It took me 18 months to write, just like “Scrambled Eggs” — the most covered song of all time.

Don’t know what I’m talking about?

The song’s known and produced name, is “Yesterday”, written by Paul McCartney, then recorded by The Beatles in 1965. 

I grew up listening to The Beatles which channeled my authentic wild-child energy whenever I sang and danced along to “Yellow Submarine”, “Help”, “Lucy in The Sky with Diamonds”, “All You Need is Love”, “Eleanor Rigby”, and so many others. The thing is, that energy actually worked to repell people away from me, even some I deeply cared for. As if it was annoying that I had so much joy — but that's just it. When you see that people are annoyed by lively energy, silliness, and love — you can see straight through to their hurt, their grief, or sometimes, evil spirit influence/possession. Basically, truth is pretty obvious, when you take a solid look at the scenario you may be in. You just have to look. 

But “Yesterday” and “Breathe Deep” aren’t songs that evoke joy. They are songs that help you get to a place where you can experience joy again, because they are songs that help you grieve. To grieve is to breathe into a loss in your life. Where breath is Spirit — your life source. Prolonged, chronic or masked grief, will bring your energy frequency extremely low. And while grieving takes time, if you grieve well, you’ll move on with ease, willingly even. Which is where the 18 months comes into play. 

18 months is the timespan of 2 human pregnancies. Here’s why that matters. It matters, because when looking through the scope of pregnancy, which is a timely, natural process of creation — there are the 9 months spent in creative mode and preparation, and the immediate 9 months post-delivery, rest and adjustment. Where the 9 months in the womb are largely for baby, the first 9 months out are largely for the parents, though obviously still for baby (but for real though they are just sleeping most of the time anyways). I’d bet that most patterns of relation to baby, parenting style and partnership dynamics are determined in those first 9 months after baby arrives — it’s just the natural clock we tend to run on as humans. You’ll even see this clock in academia and in the entertainment industry, where the school year and seasons run for 9 months. 

And since 9 months is our natural clock, when we’re hit with something unexpected, a trauma, the loss of a loved one, or a child — it takes double the time to process the grief.. when you grieve well. If you don’t grieve well, focused, dedicated with your time, truly connecting and releasing — loose ends from the experience will continue intertwining into your life. This will cap your energy, potential and involvement in life far past when you could have been done grieving, enjoying the memories of life as opposed to wallowing in the loss of them. You’re not here to be miserable — you’re here to enjoy life… and the memories you make. 

It’s probably why scrambled eggs are the go-to food during your time of grieving. They’re easy to make, and hard to mess up. Not to mention, your brain loves the omega-3 from them. It’s also probably why the song “Yesterday” was first called, “Scrambled Eggs.” And maybe why it took Paul and myself 18 months to write 2 powerful songs that we’ve seen impact the lives around us. It was our grief that we shared with the world to be witnessed. In sharing it, I believe we’ve helped others grieve well, also. Cause let’s be real — Musicians? We’re not that secretive, we tend to wear our hearts on our sleeves, and a lot of the time, songs will come ready to be written. Other times, songs are written at the pace of processing something in life. So beats me, but “Yesterday” and “Breathe Deep”? That’s 2 for 2, songs about grief, written in the timespan of grief. I’m sure there are more out there. 

Last, every “yesterday” prepares you for tomorrow. Depending on how those yesterdays pan out, and how well you grieved the ones you needed to grieve, determines what your tomorrows will look like. 

While I love scrambled eggs just like any other egg lover (and I’ve mastered how to make them using Gordon Ramsay’s method) — I’m a big fan of quiche.

Or eggs in purgatory when I’m feeling a little spicy. 

So, how do you like your eggs?

-B

*If you or a loved one is currently grieving, check-in with yourself consistently. Check-in with your loved one regularly. Seek professional support if needed. You can also listen to “Scrambled Eggs” (either song linked above) as a place to start grieving well.